From my internal monologue:

I’m fat.

I know that’s a super insensitive thing to say, but I’ve said that now something like 8 times today.

I need to get over this.

I need to work out and eat better.

I need to do something about this heaviness, this feeling weighted down.

I need to quit telling myself what I need to do.

Be gentle with yourself, Raquel. Be gentle with your body, okay?

You’re not fat – you want to make changes. Say that.